I don't know where to start...

My worse fears have been confirmed!!! I bombed my midterm in Statistics :( grrrrr!!!! I should of just left my books and notes closed prior to this exam because it did no good! And just as I was open about getting 85% on my first assignment, I have to be just as open about how I got 47% on my exam! This is b*llsh*t, and I just can't even begin to explain how I feel.

But the only comfort that I can find, is in knowing that, I am not the only one! After the midterm, I ran into at least 5 of my classmates and they were all stressing about how they did. All of them just had a gut feeling that they didn't do so well. This is an extremely hard class. In all the time that I have been in school, I have never done this bad. I must add that a lot of us are not very fond of this professor. And we have heard the rumors all along from other students. She explains everything really fast, and just expects us to grasp all the information and acts as if we have been doing this for 15 years, just like her. She is not very approachable, and believe me there have been many complaints about her.

So I talked to some of the people from my study group and they bombed it as well. She makes the exams so confusing, and words things in a complicated manner. And this was not multiple choice, we had to actually answer her questions and work out 15 formulas. So one of my classmates and I are suppose to be graduating in December. So we went ahead and asked if we fail a course, can we still walk at the commencement ceremony. YES! We can still walk, but we just won't receive our degree, and we will have to return in the Winter and pass the course, then we will receive our degree. Well it's not that I am setting myself up for failure, but a side of me has to be somewhat realistic about the whole thing. Believe me I still have some hope, I have not given up, but the standards as of now have been set extremely high. In order to pass I have to get the following:

There are 4 lab assignments worth 20 points each, and 2 exams work 150 points each. From now on I would have to get perfect scores on the next two lab assignments, meaning 20/20. And I would have to get 135/150 on my final exam, that is 90% on the final exam. That would leave me with 71% as a grade! I WOULD PASS THE COURSE! Seeeee I can be good with numbers and calculations, it's just that this class goes beyond all that. :(

I feel motivated right now, I have actually started reading and trying extremely hard to understand all the material.

To be continued.......