Worried!

It started with four straight days of work for this week. After a few days I checked again, it was down to three days of work. No need to panic. I checked yesterday and I was scheduled only one day for next week. Hmmm not good. I go in today, check again and the hours are gone. Ohhh ohhhh!!! Not good!

I think, okay I'm going to talk to the lady in Admin. and see if maybe there is a mistake. I decide to wait until the end of my shift. While I was in the middle of something, the store manager comes to my cubicle and says, "hey Belen can I see you in my office." I immediately stop what I'm doing and work my way there. The manager proceeds by saying, "the seasonal period is over and for the time being we have to lay off some people." I'm thinking "for the time being" does that mean you are going to call me back????????? My mind is working at 100 mph. He says they have to figure out the budget, and that will take about 30 days. He does need people and once they get the budget figured out, they will call me and see if I am willing to come back. Most seasonal workers are simply being let go. He claimed that he was only asking A FEW if they are willing to come back. Okay so I say sure, I'm willing to come back. But ummm yeah whatever I still need a job. I have things to pay and a wedding to worry about.

Anyway I am very grateful that the store manager hired me, because he hired me knowing that I had absolutely no retail experience. Before he started there, he turned down a position for the Riverside Sheriff's and I think maybe he could relate to my government background.

It's official I've become a statistic. Unemployed in this crappy economy! My situation is different though. I can't try to find a permanent job here in Cali. because I will be moving in May. No one is going to take me, knowing that I will be working for them less than 5 months. Okay so I figure it's tax season, maybe someone needs a temporary receptionist or something. Yes, I tell you my mind is working at 100 mph right now. I need a job, and NOW! Okay, but I must remain calm. I can only do what I can and the rest is up to you know who...GOD! After every end, is a new beginning. So what will my weekend consist of???????? Yes, I will be applying for jobs!

I can't stand instability. It's always in me to have things under control. And that is not happening right now. But more than ever I must remain grounded and optimistic.