New Year's Eve!

I am a bit bummed that I have to work today from 2p-7p. My parents are going to get together with family in L.A. and I have to stay behind and go to work. :(

I was going to call in because I'm still sick. But I decided against it, I'm going to go in, I figure if I can't handle it, I'll just go home early. It's such a beautiful day!!!!!!!!! I wish I could just hang out and enjoy New Year's Eve. Oh well it is, what it is! I'm grateful to at least have a job, and my family.

I can't wait to get better so I can start shedding those pounds. It's on baby!!!!! LOL.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Determined!

I've been here many many times. But it's time to get it together. It's not a New Year resolution, it sounds so cliche, but I have to stick with it forever. LOOSING WEIGHT! And aside from that we have our wedding that is right around the corner. :)

As I was unpacking today and doing my laundry, I was thinking. I decided to clean out my closet and put away all the clothes that didn't fit me. OMG there were a lot of clothes on the floor. LOL! Very few things fit me. :( So helloooooooo reality check! I have gained massive weight. Every time I loose 10 lbs. I will try on the clothes that don't' fit me, I'm sure that will motivate me to keep going once I see that things fit. There is no turning back and I have decided that I have to start as soon as I get better. I don't want to start now, because I can't work out like I would like to, with this cold. It may sound like excuses but I know myself.

I would reveal my weight but nahhhhh it's way too much I'm sure. What I'll do is I'll blog about it every time I loose 10 lbs. After I've reached my goal I will announce all the weight I took off this 5'1 body. :) I have four months and a few weeks to reach my goal. I have made up my mind, there is no turning back.

Guadalajara!

My trip to Guadalajara was great, except for the fact that Raul and I got extremely sick. We made the best of it and went about our days. Raul got sick on his way to Mexico and I got sick on Sunday. I had a few days to enjoy a few cocktails, as for Raul he was drinking orange juice, no ice the whole time! My poor baby! Last night I felt like I was dying. I had a fever the whole way home. It was horrible, and last night I felt like I was dying. I was waking up every 30 minutes with cough attacks. :(

When I arrived Friday night we went to a place called Bariachi's and of course you can't leave Guadalajara without listening to an awesome Mariachi. Some of Raul's cousins joined us, his sister, and a few others. It was fun, we got home around 2am. Raul was such a trooper, because he hung in there sick and all while we all drank up a storm. He insisted that we stay as long as possible. Here is a picture of us at at Bariachi's Restaurant!


Before heading out! Yup Raul is sick, can you tell?








Rose (Raul's sister) and I!


Saturday was Valeria's baptism. And here are a few pictures as well.



Raul and his sister Rose!




Raul and BIL Carlos!


My love!



Me, Raul's mom, and Raul!






Raul and his Dad!

12-28 Lounging on Sunday!

Okay I'll post more pics. later, this thing is time consuming and since I'm sick my patience level is at zero. LOL.


I was so excited to be going to Mexico. The only bad part is coming back. I almost cried when Raul and I were saying our farewells. But I held it in and acted like miss tough girl. :) Time will fly by and before I know it, we will see each other again in May! :) This time for good! One thing I must say though is that I don't feel like being at home. It sounds mean but I guess I am feeling that way because I just got back from being with Raul and honestly I feel like starting my own life already. Don't get me wrong I love my parent's to death, and even if I wasn't getting married I would be itching to get out of the house and do my own thing. I just wish Raul and I could start our own thing. Oh well, no other choice than to have patience, and I will be just that PATIENT. :)

So overall my trip went well and Raul and I had a lot of time together. They had a mini family reunion on Sunday and that was a bunch of laughs. :) We also ate great tacos while in Mex., and a variety of junk food. But not so great for my waistline. LOL! Speaking of food, I'll be posting a blog about that soon, I really have to give myself a major makeover physically. :)

I hope everyone had a great Christmas and I of course Happy New Year to all!

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I finally finished shopping for the babies (Raul's niece and nephew). Wheww and I am very happy with what I got. :) I worked a 330p-11p shift yesterday and agreed to cover a co-worker from 8a-330p today. NEVER AGAIN! Now I understand why they always make sure we get enough rest after two days of work. It's crazy in that store, especially right now. So this week I am working three days straight and when I am there I feel like I'm going crazy, and once I get home of course I chill out.

The days are flying by and before I know it I'll be getting on the plane to see Raul and his family. YIKES! Good YIKES! :) My grandma is here from Mexico and it's good to see her. And it's also good to know she will be with us for the holidays. Anyway well I better go because I feel like I am just blabbin' away and have nothing interesting to say. :) I need some inspiration. I'm sure I'll be filled with lots of stories once I get back from Guadalajara and oh yes with lots and lots of pictures of everyone. I'm not sure if time will allow for me to post more blogs, or I just might have writers block for a while.

I wish everyone a very Merry Christmas and I hope you all enjoy yourselves with all of your family and friends. May God bless you all, and remember that I'm glad that you are all a part of my life, you all hold a special place in my heart.

PEACE OUT BIIIIIIIIIITTTCCHEESS! :)

-B

Starting to feel a lot like X-mas!!!!

I hit the mall with a few goals in mind. But did I accomplish any of them? NO! I was supposed to concentrate on buying a gift for Raul, his nephew, and niece. Instead I ended up with a pair of jeans for myself, a black vest, Paul Mitchell hairspray, and "this n that" for my trip to Guadalajara. I used my gift cards, and I still have some left. :)

I didn't see anything that caught my attention for the babies. Everything was so blahh! And I hate having to buy another typical sweater for Raul. I need to get creative!

The streets of Mo Val were packed. Did anyone say BAD ECONOMY, NAHHHHH! Everyone was getting their shopping done and along with all that I couldn't avoid the slow walking people in front of me, the slow driver who thinks they are the only ones on the road, and the loooooooooong lines. I sound like scrooge huh! But no, I think it got to me after hours and hours of trying to find a good gift. I decided I would just finish tomorrow. :)

Excited!

I've know that Raul and I are going to see each other on the 26th of this month, but just today it actually hit me that, I'M GOING TO SEE HIM IN A MATTER OF DAYS. I'm soooooooooooooo excited. We have not seen each other for 7 1/2 months and at times I don't even know how we manage. Somehow we adapt to the situation, we have concluded that it's simply the love that we have for each other, that is what keeps us there. Anyway I get a quick visual of his lovely smile and I just get butterflies. BARF!!! LOL!!!Sorry but it's true I can't wait to get a big ol' hug from him, he gives the best hugs. SIGH!!! I'm soooo excited! :)

The rain can't stop me! :)

Yesterday was a very rainy day!!!! But that didn't stop me from shopping, shopping and shopping. I love it! I used some of the gift cards that I got, and I was so happy to get some good deals! I was so excited, because I haven't shopped like this in a very long time. I didn't know what to do with myself. I went to H&M and got some pretty good deals there. I had my eye on this very cute lavender scarf. I took it with me to the register, and at the last minute I thought nahh I could probably find it cheaper at Old Navy. They have nice scarves for like $2.50. I left it there. Later I decided nahhhhh I'll go back to H&M and buy it it's only $9.99. So I go back and IT'S GONE AHHHHH. I hate that! I should of bought it, but then I thought oh well it wasn't meant to be! I love scarves dang, I still regret not buying it!!!!

I bought the wonderful Endless love lotion from Victoria Secret mmmmmmmmm love that smell! And a awesome lip gloss from Sephora!!! I also got two cute scarves from NY & Co. Yeah I made up for not getting the lavender one. :) Yuupppiii and I'm going to keep shopping tomorrow! LOL! That's what gift cards are meant for!!!!

Here are some of the things that I bought!


I bought the larger red traveler bag. Original price was $12 at Bath & Body Works but I got it for only $3. WOW! I was such a happy shopper!

Original price $34 I got it for $13 at New York & Co. I love purses! :)

I got this make up bag at Bath & Body Works for just $1

And these sassy boots from Macy's! I can't wait to wear them!

The Grand Finale!

Summer of 2008 was here and I was weeks away from starting the summer quarter. My plan was to take three classes during the summer. I didn't want to waste anytime. My thing was to work hard, so I can finish faster! Something along the way told me to check with financial aid and make sure that all the funds would go through to cover the expenses for my classes. I find out that my financial aid was denied. I wouldn't be getting a penny to cover my classes. That is the last thing I needed to hear. That meant that I wouldn't be graduating until June of 2009. In order to keep this short I will number the things that followed:

1) I went into plan B mode and I decided to ask my parents for financial assistance. :) Long story short they agreed and dished out money for my classes. They gave me the exact amount to cover my classes. For some reason I left out the cost for my parking permit. I felt so bad about asking for more money that I ended up doing without the parking permit. I had to park off campus and walk an extra 25 minutes to my class. I had to make that walk four times a week for eight weeks. IT SUCKED!!! But I wasn't the only one and I figured it was good exercise for me LOL, and all that made me humble.

2) Going back a bit, around November or December of 2007 we found out that one of my close uncles was having health problems. Around the same time another dear aunt of mine was also going through health issues. My uncle had brain cancer, and my aunt had a lot of complications that eventually lead to her death. My aunt passed away July 25, 2008. My uncle passed away August 7, 2008 and my cousin (my aunts daughter) got married August 9, 2008. So first we went to a funeral, a wedding and another funeral. We were going through an emotional roller coaster! We couldn't understand what was going on! It was tough for our family!

3) I wasn't working much and honestly I don't even know how I managed not to get my phone cut off. Maybe a decent balance of the check book helped. I was desperately looking for a job, ANYTHING. I must of had a collection of rejection letters. And it didn't help the economy was bad!!! And well, still is a bit rocky. I remember the summer of 2008 being an extremely long summer. No money, no hours at work, nothing to do. It was awful. Thank God I at least had my nephew around. I would pass my days and hours playing with him. I mean, talk about being dead broke. And when you are dead broke, time passes by realllllllllllllllllly slooooooooooooow! I am glad that's over. I will always remain a strong believer that money isn't everything, but at times it gives you peace of mind and things to do! LOL!

4) Raul and I were trying to figure out what we were going to do about our wedding plans. We decided that we couldn't be apart much longer, we wanted a wedding and we had to have it as soon as possible. That is when we decided on getting married in May of 2009. Thank God things started falling into place! We now have the venue, church, and honeymoon booked. The rest is slowly but surely falling into place. I can't believe there is less than five months left, as opposed to the nine months that were left when we started planning.

5) The fall quarter came around and I started taking my last two classes. I was also given a job at best buy. Whewwww! And well, you all know the drama I went through with the stats. class. I just graduated as you all know as well, on 12/13/08. And I am sooooooo glad to be done!!! :)

It was an interesting journey. At times I thought it would never end! I don't regret the decision I made because I learned a lot along the way. I am glad that I accepted the challenges because I am now enjoying the victory. I now know the true meaning of hard work and sacrifice!!!! I know what it's like to have a passion towards something and work hard for it. It's not that I've never had to work hard to get what I want, but this was something I worked extremely hard for. I had to give up a lot, but in the end it was worth it. I know that I wrote about a lot of the bad things that happened, but don't' get me wrong, I see the positive side of it all too. I am grateful that I had the opportunity to focus mainly on my classes. Getting through school is not easy. I admire people who have a full time job, kids, school etc etc. because that takes a lot of dedication, discipline and hard work. You can't slack off and expect to get good grades. It takes work. So my hat comes off to those who juggle all those things at once. I am here to say that it doesn't matter how long it takes you, as long as you have your eye on the prize, you will get there. And that is all that matters! Don't give up! I am now ready to enjoy life! I will soon be getting married to the love of my life and I can't wait. We have been apart too long and we are ready to start our lives. All I want to focus on for the time being is the wedding plans, my family,and being a good friend and person each and every day. I have many hopes and dreams for the future. I hope that 2009 has a lot of good things and blessing for me, my family, and friends. I just want to be a good future wife, and mother. I hope God blesses us with a bundle of joy by early 2010. :)

Undercover Operation???????

Yesterday after work I was running some errands and I stopped by Target. We have two in town, and I decided to go to the one where there is less people. I guess I just didn't want to deal with the long lines. Anyway so as I am looking for parking I notice a police officer driving east bound in the parking lot as I'm driving west bound. I thought nothing of it. That side of town is pretty much quiet and all the upper middle class lives in that area. Everything there is brand spankin' new!

I find parking and as I am parking in the vacant spot I notice that the car parked next to me has the trunk wide open. But again I think nothing of it. I park my car, turn it off, get out and lock my car. I am always observing my surroundings, it's just part of what I do, and I have done it for as long as I can remember. So as I lock my car door I notice that there is no one around the car next to me, but the trunk is wide open and there is a play station box in the trunk. So I think, I better shut this trunk so that no one strolls by and steals it. It seems that maybe the owners tried to shut it and as they walked away didn't realize that the trunk was left wide open. So being the person that I am, I decided I would take a brief look around and after noticing that no one was around I shut the trunk. After shutting it, I looked back and the trunk locked in.

So as I am walking into the store I'm thinking dang that would of sucked if someone came by and took that Play Station, it must have been a gift for someone. So I go into the store and go about my business. About 30 minutes later I come out the store and immediately notice that there is a police car and a white car parked right in front of my car. I must have 20/20 vision because even though it was night time I could tell they were blocking my car.

As I approach my car, I noticed that there was a male in the back seat of the police car. There was a police officer speaking with what seemed to be an undercover cop. They soon realized that they were blocking my way, so the police officer said, "sorry miss, just give us a second while we move our car." I said nothing, and just stood there while they did what they had to do. The white Mitsubishi Eclipse was in front of the car that had it's trunk open, and the police car was parked right behind it. Hmmmm! So they quickly move the car and I am able to get in my car and leave.

As soon as I drive off I'm thinking, okay let me try to put all this together. Was this an undercover operation, that I just screwed up????? Or maybe interfered with??? I was thinking back and I did notice an old beat up blue van parked across from me and there was a white heavy set man standing next to it, but he had his back to me. So I'm thinking that was definitely the man I saw speaking with the police officer. He was one of the undercover officers. It had to be!!

So I'm thinking they were doing an undercover operation on someone in specific and they decided to put the vehicle there and leave the trunk open with the Play Station in it. They knew this person would be going there and so they set it up that way. And then I thought what if they were just doing that set up for any random person. I've learned that entrapment can be a very controversial issue but it's allowed. Police officers are allowed to do such things. So anyway I don't know what really happened, but it was just such a coincidence. This may seem weired but if this happened to you, what would you make of it? This area of town is so peaceful and quiet that I never thought I would see anything like this. It may sound like I was being paranoid but the whole thing was weird.

Catching up!!

I realize that I haven't completed the grand finale of my two year journey. And honestly I'm trying to think of a way to make it short. At this moment I can't get my thoughts together because I have gone through a lot of exciting things in the past few days. I am trying to play catch up with a lot of things. The fact that I had to work the day after my graduation really sucked and today I went in bright and early. :( Luckily I have the next two days off and I am looking forward to my days off.

I'll write my grand finale soon. What I must say though is that I'm glad I made it through. I feel like such a big load has been lifted off my shoulders. I am happy! I still don't know if I passed my Statistics class but I am being optimistic. I am prepared for whatever the outcome may be. All I know is that I am so glad that I won't see that crazy teacher anymore. She needs to stop teaching. The final exam was so confusing, but I won't get into it, I finished the whole thing in time and all I can say is that my conscious is clear because I know that I worked my ass off and I didn't slack off. If things weren't good enough for her then there is not much I can do. Everyone I spoke with is terrified! But we just have to wait and see!

I am also looking forward to seeing my baby Raul. Ten more days, I can't wait! I am soooo excited! I am ready to enjoy life, like life was meant to be enjoyed! I've worked hard the past two years! I'm happy, and I am happy with the way things are going in my life!

Happy Day!

Hello everyone, it's been a while!

The graduation ceremony and party was a success. The ceremony was of course boring, but exciting when all of us graduates walked out, when we walked up to the stage, when they called my name, and at the end when all the graduates danced to an old school song! LOL!

It made me feel so good to see the look on my parents face when they saw me in the crowd at the bottom. I was able to spot them and my friend and the were waving and my parents looked so proud. What a great feeling! SIGH! The weather was a bit on the gloomy side and it even rained here and there but the party kept going.

It was so nice to see my friends that I haven't seen in a while. It was the best. I missed a lot of you and I wish you could of been there. It was also so cute to see Jordan (Jamie's son) and Alyssa playing and it almost seemed like they had a crush on each other. Mind you they are like 2 and 3 years old. Jordan looked so cute in his Puma outfit! My friend Carolina flew in from Arizona and I must give a million thanks to her for being there every step of the way. She was helping with setting up for the party, taking pictures, music, food, taking video, she is the best and I thank her so much!

I got a lot of gift cards, and yes you know I already started shopping!!! I bought a Victoria Secret lotion and a nice little scarf so far. :) THANK YOU to all my wonderful friends that got me something, you know you didn't have to and I wasn't expecting it. I was excited just to have you all there! You are all the best.

There was a brief speech given by my parents, my friend Carolina, and from me. My Dad is a man of few words, therefore all he said was, "I am the proud father of Belen, and I am so proud of my daughter, and thank you all for being here." But to me his words were powerful!!! My mom said, "I want you to know that we love you (even if we don't tell you often) and we are very proud of you." She was close to tears!! My friend said, "I am so proud of you, all your hard work and sacrifice paid off and just know that I love you and I am here for you." We were all close to tears now. Then I proceeded with, "thank you all for being here, I am forever grateful to my parents for all their support, (even though I don't express it, can you tell there is no communication between us LOL. j/k) I love you both." And there I go a tear comes out, I had to stop talking because I was getting too emotional. :) I must note that the day also marked the 38th anniversary of my parents marriage. So my gift to them was my graduation, because I know that made them proud. :)

And another fun part was that we all played catch phrase until 1 in the morning. :) It was so much fun. I love that game! So it was WOMEN against BOYS. LOL! It was so funny, and fun! I am sad to announce that the boys won, but that's okay we let them win! :) I get competitive when it comes to game playing. If I remember correctly Susie was getting scared because I was trying to make us win, Mirella was laughing because I started saying "warm apple pie (inside joke) and I added a little dance to it", Greg was being too serious and technical on all the descriptions. The word to describe was "Miss. America." And Greg said, "it's what's on TV and it's really dumb", Oh yeah Miss America!! LOL and Judy was just fighting with Jr. And Leo ummm I think he was just making us laugh with his comments.

Once again thank you everyone for coming and joining me on this special day. And for those who didn't make it, I hope I can see you all very soon. :)

I posted some pictures on myspace, but for those who don't have a myspace account I will post a few here. Enjoy! And love you all!!!!







I realized that I didn't take pictures with Leo, Judy, Jr. Mirella, Susie, Greg etc etc....dang...I don't know what happened. :( This loading of pictures is taking forever, so I'll post more later!

Current Issue!

I was watching a Spanish news channel, and they were covering a story where the city of Compton was handing out toys to less fortunate families. Among the families were a combination of black and Mexican families. Well, that's a nice deed, right? Being that it's the holidays and times are tough. However the story caught my attention because they stated that city officials required that all families provide a valid California ID. BUT wait now I can't remember if they required ALL families to show valid ID or only required Mexican families to do so. Anyway if they couldn't provide some proof of legal residency their children would not be given a toy.

So I was thinking about this, and in reality who is at fault or wrong here? Here are a few questions I came up with.

1)How did the families find out about the event? Did they find out through the media or newspaper? Did the media specify that you would have to prove your legal residency? If so why would illegal residents show up and and have their kids be disappointed about not getting a toy. OR they just didn't understand due to the language barrier. But what if it was in Spanish? So in that case if Mexican families were advised, then city officials are not at fault?

2) Is it right for city officials to do such a thing? I mean, you might as well say if you have committed a felony please do not show up because your child will not get a toy. Prove that you have a clean criminal history. That's wrong, you can't do that! So why is it okay to do that to illegal residents?

Granted it's wrong to be here illegally, but why involve kids in this. They don't know the meaning of all that. Why not just do a good deed, and put aside the legal aspect of it all. Or simply don't do anything at all. I don't know, but this whole thing bothered me. And I don't agree with it.

I'm going to do some more research and see if I find anything on this online, but nonetheless I disagree with the whole deal.

Not my taste and this and that!!!!!

I decided to relax tonight, from I guess you can say, all the reality that is going on in my life!!! I went to class today, studied for 2.5 hours and now it is ME time. :) And what do I choose to do???? Yes, watch TV, chit chat with my Dad about this and that, blog and change my background layout on my blog page. :) Awwwwww refreshing. Talk about having NO LIFE! LOL! Aww whatever I'm happy doing just this for now.

The background on my page is not exactly my cup of tea. But I decided to go with something different. My favorite color is red!!!!!!!! I love it!!! There can be something very funky and ugly looking but if it's red I'll find the beauty in it. :) I just can't find any layouts with a red background. :( They don't give too many layouts to choose from. If anyone knows where I can get more of a variety please let me know!!!!!! For now I'll stick to polka dots....until I get tired it. I tend to be girly, but not thaaaaaaaaaaat girly. I don't know, are polka dots girly. Aww who knows!

On a side note, yesterday I felt completely overwhelmed. I was close to tears. I was on the phone with Raul and he managed to make me feel better. He always has the right words to make me see things from a different perspective. I love him for being that way and for being so supportive and encouraging. I can't wait to see him! I'm just counting down the days! I can use a great big hug from him! :) SIGH!!!! For those of you who have your hubby's and boyfriends close to you give them a hug and a kiss. Those little gestures go a long way. And for those who can't stand their hubby's or boyfriends uhhhhh can't help you there. :) C'mon people let's spread the love. :) LOL!

Until next time!

Stats. Chisme :)

Let's see it's been a few days since a bit of drama unfolded, so let me try to gather my thoughts. Okaaaaaaay, yeah I remember. Lupe and the other girl have constant contact because they have two classes together. So I get all my information from Lupe, because the other girl always makes crazy comments against ME. Don't hate!!! LOL! Anyway so we've had to submit a few assignments and today we turned in the last one. The other girl made a comment to Lupe and expressed that she was going to get the third assignment from a girl that took stats. before with the same teacher. I'm thinking how does she know it's the exact same assignment? This teacher is crazy and she changes things all the time. I found out today that the other girl never gave her the assignment and she got a big fat well deserved ZERO.

Anyway okay so a few days pass by and the night before our third assignment was due I get a text. I couldn't recognize the number, it read "I'm off today is there any way we can meet today so we work on the assignment. I soon realized it was the other girl. Jajajajajajajajajaj! I erased her number from my phone weeks ago, and that is why I couldn't recognize the number. So then I respond by saying, "sorry I have to work." Then later that night I get another one from her and it read, "what time can we meet tomorrow morning?" Jajajajajajajaj again!!!! The way she worded that was as if she was already certain that I would meet with her early in the morning. There was nooooooooooo way I was going to get up early when I didn't have to. Especially not for her!!! Remember I'm a sangrona!!!!!!! Yup, yup that's me! I never responded to that text!

The next day rolls around and as I get out of the elevator, she is right in front of me with Lupe!!! Come to find out that Lupe was hiding from her the whole time in the restroom. LOL! I just have to laugh it off at this point. This girl is insane. So as I walk towards Lupe, the other girl doesn't say a word to me, and well neither do I. It was so weird!!!!!!!!! As if she never tried to contact me the night before!!!!!!!!!!

She asked Lupe if they can meet over the weekend. All of a sudden she is interested in learning the material and we are less than 7 days from the final exam!!! In a nice way Lupe said she can't. This girl needs a miracle! And you know what????? I'll contribute to saying a little prayer for her tonight, because she can use that miracle to pass this class. Even though we have been studying like mad women, we still run across some problems. Best of luck for her! I'm just amazed at how weird some people can be. This girl has a lot of growing up to do!!!

I got a call from another girl which I met last year. She is also a criminal justice major. She is taking the same class but with another teacher. She asked me if I could help her with the material and I gladly said yes. I got together with her and explained some of it. We worked out a few problems and we got them all right. :) I found that explaining it to someone else helps me out a lot!!! There, that was my good deed for that day! :)

Brief!!!

I wish I could sit here worry free and blog blog and blog. But I can't! It's seems as though the next eight days will be complete chaos. There are assignments to turn in, more studying to do, work, work out (to keep the stress down), graduation party planning, and FINALS!

I have a few things that I would like to blog about, but I guess I have to use my time wisely for now and complete an assignment that needs to be turned in tomorrow at 10a. If I didn't have to work at 12p today I know I would use my procrastination skills and put my assignment off until the last minute. BUT it's now or never!

I can't wait until I can sit down with my friends and family at my grad. party and just chill, with no worries and a nice margarita drink in my hand. :):):):):):)

I was reading one of the inspirational quotes that appear daily on my blog and it read:

"When you find yourself stressed, ask yourself one question: Will this matter in 5 years from now? That is sooooooo true, and that helped me out! I'm getting better day by day when it comes to over stressing. :)